I have no confidence, no self esteem, I try my best not to stare at the ground when I walk but I always do, I shake, I’m nervous, I walk funny, I can’t look anyone in the eye, I don’t even feel like a real person
I can’t connect with anyone and whenever someone talks to me I feel hollow, I can only give minimal, boring, monotone responses
I want to be really bubbly and talkative and I want to be able to get on with everyone around me but all I can do is shut everyone out and keep to myself till I can come back home.
I really hate myself and I wish I could change everything. I always thought going to uni and college would change me and at the start of this year I felt like everything was going to be different, I felt like I was going to become the friendly, outgoing person I’ve always wanted to be but after a week I wen back to the same thing. I only talk to other people when my friend is in but if she’s not I shut myself off completely.
I feel like a robot or something